DVR'ing Through Life

I didn't watch the British Open live this weekend.  I only set my DVR to record it, and I only planned on watching if Tom Watson won.  In other words, I had no interest in watching if there was no happy ending.  And as it happened, Watson missed the putt to win and lost badly in a playoff.  So I deleted the recorded show and never watched.

I find myself wanting to do this in life.  For instance, we're in the middle of buying a house, and like I so often want to do, I wish I could fast-forward the next couple months rather than witnessing first-hand how it all unfolds.  I don't want to watch b/c I'm afraid it won't end well.  I'm afraid we won't get the house we want, or I'm afraid the financing will fall through... blah, blah, blah.  I only want to watch the events unfold if I can be certain it will turn out in a way "favorable" to me, i.e. we get a house we're both excited about.

That's not how You want me to go through life, is it Lord?  You don't want me to DVR life.  You want me to walk where You lead me... and to walk in faith that just as You led me to get into the boat , You will also lead me out of the storm to the other side (Luke 8:22-25).  And You want me to watch it all as it happens.

Forgive me Lord when I don't trust You to finish the job.  When I don't trust You that no matter what I go through, the only thing that matters is that You're right there with me with Your loving arms holding me tight.  And it won't all be good - You are good, but life may not be.  But Your ways are perfect.  And I can always rest in that.

Thank You Father.    Amen.